~Kit-Kat~

Long time

2009-12-09T08:19:45Z

Wow....It has been quite some time since I have come on here. Yes everyone, obviously I am still alive and intend to keep it that way at the time being, I have not gone completely crazy JUST yet.

I have been going through a lot of changes, I have been through the heartbreaks and the lies. I have chosen a life where I weed out little liers and two faced people who are as you could say my "friends" for lack of a better term. I have also learned who are my true friends and it has become more clear who will be there for me and who will not be in the end. So I try to keep a smile on my face more often but hey there HAVE been some rough patches where I just feel so alone and like I just can't make it anymore but I just have to deal with it and get on with my life.

I have been going to school and playing my game, I also signed up at a gym.

Loving hockey too.

emmameiko @ 2009-07-26T15:00:00

2009-07-26T19:10:01Z

Well yesterday I got a henna tattoo and I am debating on if I want to get the tat for real. Though I know if I get it before I turn 18 my grandfather will blow his mind which I don't want him to do so thats means if I am going to get it then I will put it off for another year at least.

Lately I just don't know what to do, I feel so confused and lost amoungst all the people I know. And I don't know how to deal with some things that happen and its just a big stress fest. I realized I don't read like I used to and I don't write like I used to but maybe that is because all I would write about was being depressed and down and sad which was brought on a lot by one person in general. Though my friends I have now, of course like always they are older but I feel like they understand and I was able to tell them what I went through with Luke and even though it was really hard at times they were there and told me some of the same things that Fluffy would. It is just nice to have friends there for me no matter what and I hope to see them soon. That would be nice.

I hope everyone is doing well and just is thankful for the good friends that they have now and for life or had throughout their lives.

Week away from home

2009-07-04T22:06:45Z

Well I went away for Air Force JROTC in Castine Maine for roughly 6 days and we did a bunch of stuff you can see where I went by looking at www.mainemaritine.edu it is absolutely beautiful. I was in a flight of 7 people, 6 guys and i was the only girl. it was very interesting hahahaha we did a bunch of drill and physical training i got sick every day but i didn't quit, our first night we went to the beach and had a camp fire and made smores and told old war stories and just funny stories that made sense only to sgt. norey sometimes haha we did water survival training in those bright red lobster suits lol and i drove a 45ft power boat i was nervous because i was the first one out of everyone and they were all watching but the boat guy said i did really good those two things were in 2 days and then one night we watched a movie and my last night we did CSAR- combat search and rescue with a dummy pilot. there were 2 squadrants 1st and 2nd, 1st did theirs on wednesday and we-2nd had it on the last day thursday and there are two teams, red and blue, red were unfriendlies and blue were the good guys well i was on red with my 8man crew, 2 recon teams each had a radio operator and a navigator there were two defenders-me being one and a major radio op and a commander--blue team had 28 people btw against 8(red)- and we got the downed pilot made a base near the Head quarters and we had a center where the pilot was hidden---granted we were doing this in a wild life reserve so instead of paintball guns we used super soakers with 2 litter bottles attached--nice that it is water but fuck is it heavy after running uphill and shit. one recon team took the northeast position and the other took a lil north west and i had the left frank and wrap around rear and the other defender had the right flank and wrap around rear. the recon teams took out 12 of them and they get to respawn--have a medic save them and they r fine again but my 8man team cant respawn until the other team has the pilot and are headed to the helicopter. well we lost our two recon teams and chief on the other team spotted the fuckers on my team that were sticking their heads out, i was laying in the prone position for fuckin 2 hrs and i was the only one not spotted cus i was smart and kept low key and while we first set up base i made it clear that there was minimum talking and we would whistle, knock and use hand signals. i was laying on a fallen pine tree, on the side branches while the girth was up higher than my head and covered myself with brush. so we lost our two recon teams and had no map and a radio that was useless since we had no one to radio. so i told em to make sure that if anyone were to radio us that we didnt give out any info besides we still had the pilot. we were left with a 4 man crew so we had no map and i had us move to a T intersection and go into the thick part of the woods between the two meeting paths, well i let sick walk by me, they didn't see me at all hahahaha and i was a foot no joke away from the path and the only reason why they saw me was because there were more coming and one of em asked the group up front something so he turned around and bam i was out hahaha but my 3 man group booked it across open ground. we were all downed and respawned when they were headed to the head quarters and its a square area that is fenced in and the blue team had two people on the ridge-its very hill-y so you cant see side to side and we took out those 2 people and broke up into two groups of 4, one approaching on the left and one on the right-i was on the right and we took em out we fucking slaughtered em. then when we had our debriefing back at the field house Col. was absolutely shocked that my team-red team one because the ratio 8-28 not fair he said it was set up so we werent supposed to win and the other team even cheated BUT what my 4man crew after losing our recon teams found out was that our downed recon teams found blue teams radio channel and had them running around the place for a couple hours so my team was prone position for 5 hours and we fuckin won!!! col. thought it wouldn't go so well with 2nd squadrant because 1st basically wanted to just shoot each other thats all. but my team made him proud :) but ya a few days back we had a guy from the Army national guard come in with this inflatable obstacle course, it was set up on a part of a basketball court and you had to do suicides down the court run to the beginning and run to the other end and go the width and run through the course touch the wall on the other side go back through the course and go around width wise and sprint back lengthwise. I was the first up and he asked if i was ready i said no but bring it on anyway and he laughed and said he liked my attitude lol and i was half way back coming through the course and took a breather and chief--my bud lol hes fuckin awesome was like dont give up and so was the Army guy and i screamed QUIT IS NOT IN MY VOCABULARY in one of those really frustrated pissed voices and i booked it through the rest and i really impressed the army guy and chief and my entire flight for not quitting. we did a bunch of stuff too and games i was fucking amazing at sports too. we had room inspections everyday and the most i ever lost on my room---didnt have a roommate thankfully was 2 points out of a 100 i made 5 friends with the volunteers-the AF guy who is 20, the two emts who are in the navy a lady from the airforce and a civilian. the emt girl and the airforce girl invited me to go to sixflags sometime soon, i was hooked up. lol i cried once on tuesday because my feet had blisters and i just hurt so much and i was tired of puking everyday the EMT wanted me to go to the hospital to check things out but i knew if i went i wouldn't return to leadership school and i wouldn't graduate from it and col. and sgt. and everyone saw me cry and they never see me crack like that i told them i didn't want a bust--lose points or anything cus u can get one bust and still graduate the leadership school but i completed everything 100% and they told me i could take it easy since it was social games and i cried telling them i dont want to go home and i dont want to give up because i need to be there for my flight and support them because they need me and that i wouldn't abandon them. that earned me brownie points and i said it from the heart and they knew it because i wanted to be there for them but i was dehydrated too.

btw there were 8 flights, Alpha, Bravo, Charlie, Delta, Echo, Foxtrot, Gulf, Hotel
I was in Gulf and its a point system you can get as a flight and stuff the flight with the most points gets Honor flight well Alpha had it for 2 days and then we-Gulf got it for the last three and we were the offical Honor flight of 2008-2009

I graduated from Air Force JROTC Summer Leadership School for 2008-2009

Quiet an interesting read.

2009-04-17T05:38:28Z

As you all know I have not posted in a very long time. In my absence I have found myself not in love with Luke anymore. Granted I do not mind him as a friend but my feelings for him went away maybe 2 months ago when I realized he was not the only male on the planet....yes shocking.....so I have been going through those changes and instead of my talking to Luke all the time I switched to losing myself in a video game because it was the way I could cope. After three years of constant Luke Luke Luke, I needed something that was a constant and I found the game a comfort. I play it "online" on the ps3 and have new friends on there and kill stupid rednecks and other sorts of immature fucknuts who seem to have something AHEM stuck in their throats. I learned a very important lesson from a good friend on there. I can't make everyone happy and I have to take care of myself first. Granted it is nice to make other people happy, how am I to follow through with that if I am distressed and depressed. So through all of this I finally told Luke I am tired of being hurt by him and how much it really got to me and made me cry everyday over the fact that he would be fucking another chick while we were "dating" or in "love". Mind you him living with her mother, her brother and her made me jealous but what the hell he needed a place to stay. But the thing is, I am so tired of being thrown into a corner and hurt so bad that I down myself even more. Ever since I stopped talking to him as much(which we barely speak now) I feel so much more confident and I give that credit to my friends from Call of Duty 4 Modern Warfare--the game for ps3 I play "online". I realize that I am beautiful and that some people actually do care about me while others couldn't give two cents. I find now that I am not obsessed(and yes I was) with Luke has made him realize I am not his anymore and I am done. I will not be hurt like that anymore. Yes I know all of you told me over and over again about your thoughts and I would like to thank Fluffy very much for telling me his straight up opinion even though I got upset. The thing is, I heard what all of you told me and aknowledged it, but I just didn't accept any of it. I had to find out for myself and after 3 years of this I finally figured it out. Granted I do like another guy now I can only see what will happen day to day.

I figured out that I need comforts to fill the gaps that Luke left me with over the years and its just sad it took me this long.

Thank you everyone and I hope to post more often from now on.
Hope you all had a wonderful Easter.
Take care.

A song for the wise, wisdom for the singer, sound for knowledge, learning to remember

2009-02-15T21:02:39Z

Ray Lamontagne "Sarah" Lyrics:

When we first met we were kids, we were wild, we were insects
And after a while, I grew coarse, I grew cold, I grew reckless
I hold this memory, hold you so close to me,
whispered were we always happy
Lately it feels like i'm asleep and I just can't wake up
Pacing the floor, want to call, but I can't so I hang up
Sharing a secret on the train with a lady
who's crying has ruined her make up

Now I see just how young, how scared I was
Eyes closed tight, throwing punch after punch at the world
Sarah, is it ever gonna be the same
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Sarah, is it ever gonna be the same

Said goodbye to all the places I used to go
Said goodbye to all the faces I used to know
Nothing lasts forever
I guess by now, I should know I should know

There ain't a thing I can say that will ever repair
And you, who had so much advice, and yet couldn't share
Maybe someday, we will look back at this and we'll
smile, but right now I can't bear

Now I see just how young, how scared I was
Eyes closed tight, throwing punch after punch at the world
Sarah, is it ever gonna be the same
Sarah, is it ever gonna be the same

oh boy

2009-02-13T21:30:27Z

well um lets see theres a half naked man in the library talking on his cell phone in the quiet area. Um when I walked up the stairs there was a guy who followed me up and he was right on my tail and i went for a computer and he sat next to me out of all of the other free ones. and he is talking to me and so is the other man on my left, hah surrounded by men, though one is very cute and doing his taxes oh well haha anyways we all know me and my being "shy" when i want but oh well

okay so ive been sick very sick lately, influenza type A and phnemonia, fun fun fun i finished my antibiotics yesterday and im am back on my acid reflux stuff (which they gave me a new kind that works better) and then the normal stuff for a cold since i have a runny nose and such, uhm babysitting tonight from 7pm to around 3 am, which i don't mind at all, not like i have a job anyways--which i am talking over with mom tomorrow on getting stuff done, oh fun fun and I'll tell you this librarian is quite an interesting

ta ta for now

worst ever

2009-02-08T13:40:41Z

Oh my goodness you guys, I know I have not posted in a while but as of late i find myself not wanting to repeat things multiple times. Anywho I am extremely sick, this may be a lil TMI but I have a stuffy constant runny nose(yeah explain that one to me) and my throat is raw from puking and dry heaving, and i cannot keep anything in me, food or liquid. Also I have tons of broken blood vesals in my face(so it looks like I have a thousand freckles). I cannot sleep at night because my asthma is acting up as well. and by golly gee I'll tell you my stomach hurts like a bastard from coughing, I think I have intense abs from it. PLUS I hurt everwhere and bruise even more easily. And lets add to all of this----I'm on that "monthy" thing grrr :( I've tried tylonol, ibuprofin, mucinex, my inhaler, liquids--yet it comes up along with some of the meds and I'll say cough syrup coming up HURTS, and I i keep getting sick every 5 mins or so. Plus I'm dizzy and very weak. Oh and Dunkin Donuts is trying to fire me because I've been sick, mom wants to sue if they do. I'm also tired of working there

yeah someone come save me? hah :(

Cute rememberance

2008-12-06T21:37:05Z

The Foundations "Build me up ButterCup"

Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby
Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around
And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby
When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still
I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart

"I'll be over at ten", you told me time and again
But you're late, I wait around and then (bah dah dah)
I run to the door, I can't take any more
It's not you, you let me down again

(Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find
(Hey, hey, hey!) A little time, and I'll make you happy
(Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home
I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo

Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby
Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around
And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby
When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still
I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart

You were my toy but I could be the boy you adore
If you'd just let me know (bah dah dah)
Although you're untrue, I'm attracted to you all the more
Why do I need you so

(Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find
(Hey, hey, hey!) A little time and I'll make you happy
(Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home
I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo

Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby
Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around
And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby
When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still
I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart

I-I-I need you-oo-oo more than anyone, baby
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart

Snitched from Fluff and Jeff and more

2008-12-03T04:41:32Z

Your Social Dysfunction:
Happy

You're a happy person - you have a good amount of self-esteem, and are socially healthy. While this isn't a social dysfunction per se, you're definitely not normal. Consider yourself lucky: you walk that fine line between 'normal' and being outright narcissistic. You're rare - which is something else to be happy about.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Please note that we aren't, nor do we claim to be, psychologists. This quiz is for fun and entertainment only. Try not to freak out about your results.

YOUR REPORT CARD:
Category	Grade
Love	A
Friends and Family	A+
Body	A
Mind	A+
Finance / Career	A+
Your Life's Average Grade: A+
'What is your Life Grade?' at QuizGalaxy.com

You will take over Mauritania using only a thorny rose

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

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HAHAHA this is great


	Katheryn Jane-Marie Windhorst was the cause of the apocalypse.
	... afterward, Katheryn Jane-Marie Windhorst tried to get on the price is right and failed.
	'How will you be remembered in history books?' at QuizGalaxy.com

School Smart

You're more of a 'school smarts' kind of person. You are best with the theoretical things, and your intelligence is both natural and learned - a blend of personal, experiential knowledge and book learnin'.

40% theoretical intelligence
20% learned intelligence

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

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<td align="center" style="background: #000000; color: #FFFFFF;">Katheryn Jane-Marie Windhorst's Random Movie Quote:

'I'll make him an offer he can't refuse.'

- Michael, The Godfather

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You are fun and unique.

Your parents should have named you...

Lila

What should your parents have named you?

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Eh not too much

2008-11-26T22:04:37Z

1. Started your own blog --- Yes
2. Slept under the stars --- Yes
3. Played in a band --- No
4. Visited Hawaii --- No
5. Watched a meteor shower --- No
6. Given more than you can afford to charity--- Yes
7. Been to Disneyland --- Euro Disney
8. Climbed a mountain --- Yes
9. Held a praying mantis --- No
10. Sang a solo --- Yes
11. Bungee jumped --- No
12. Visited Paris --- Yes
13. Watched a lightning storm --- Yes
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch --- Yes
15. Adopted a child --- basically
16. Had food poisoning --- No
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty --- No
18. Grown your own vegetables --- At my grams
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France --- Yes
20. Slept on an overnight train --- No
22. Hitch hiked --- No
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill --- No
24. Built a snow fort --- Yes
25. Held a lamb --- No
26. Gone skinny dipping --- No
27. Run a Marathon --- No
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice --- No
29. Seen a total eclipse --- Yes
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset --- Yes
31. Hit a home run ---yes
32. Been on a cruise --- No
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person --- no
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors --- Yes
35. Seen an Amish community --- No
36. Taught yourself a new language --- Yes
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied --- Yes
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person --- No
39. Gone rock climbing --- Yes
40. Seen Michelangelo's David --- Yes
41. Sung karaoke --- Yes
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt --- No
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant --- No
44. Visited Africa --- No
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight --- Yes
46. Been transported in an ambulance --- No
47. Had your portrait painted --- No
48. Gone deep sea fishing --- No
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person --- Yes
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris --- Yes
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling --- No
52. Kissed in the rain --- No
53. Played in the mud --- Yes
54. Gone to a drive-in theater --- No
55. Been in a movie --- No
56. Visited the Great Wall of China --- No
57. Started a business --- No
58. Taken a martial arts class --- No
59. Visited Russia --- No
60. Served at a soup kitchen --- no
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies --- No
62. Gone whale watching ---No
63. Got/gave flowers for no reason --- Yes
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma --- BLEH anyways I can't
65. Gone sky diving --- No
66. Visited a Nazi concentration camp --- No
67. Bounced a check --- No
68. Flown in a helicopter --- No
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy --- Yes
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial --- Yes
71. Eaten caviar --- No
72. Pieced a quilt --- No
73. Stood in Times Square --- Yes
74. Toured the Everglades --- No
75. Been fired from a job --- No
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London --- Yes
77. Broken a bone --- Yes
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle --- Yes
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person --- Yes
80. Published a book --- No
81. Visited the Vatican --- Yes
82. Bought a brand new car --- No
83. Walked in Jerusalem --- No
84. Had your picture in the newspaper --- Yes
85. Read the entire Bible --- no
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating --- No
88. Had chickenpox --- No
89. Saved someone’s life --- Yes
90. Sat on a jury --- No
91. Met someone famous --- Yes
92. Joined a book club --- No
93. Lost a loved one --- Yes
94. Had a baby --- No
95. Seen the Alamo in person --- No
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake --- No
97. Been involved in a law suit --- No
98. Owned a cell phone --- yes
99. Been stung by a bee --- Yes
100. Read an entire book in one day --- Yes

phones

2008-11-15T03:36:59Z

Well this morning my phone fell out of my pocket and landeed battery down in a huge puddle of water so I got a mew phone. Its the 2008 blackberry curveT

Crying at work

2008-11-09T23:47:24Z

my boss Tracy made me cry today, right infront of all the customers and everyone....

Wade needed quarters so i took a ten and was headed out back and asked Tracy if Wade could have some (since he was taking care of someone at drive thru and I was free for a few seconds, yes SECONDS not minutes) I saw Raelyn with a set of keys she was getting out for the quarters and Tracy says something about her keys being over at Wades'register..... I said and this is all I said "Okay?" I figured she didn't need them since SHE WASN'T getting me the quarters for Wade, Rae was. And she said "You know what, you do that all the time, KNOCK IT OFF" I looked at her in shock, what the hell had I done???????? I said "stop what? what did I do?" and I was sincere I had NO clue. She said, you always say just okay!!!

Rae got me the quarters all the while I was staring right at tracy in shock and she was going on and paused, I then turned around to get back to the customers, though I had burst into tears, I asked Laura if I could make coffees instead for a tiny bit to calm down since i was order taker and I can't talk and cry.....it doesn't come out well...... I have never cried this hard at work before.

Tracy sent Laura on break and then had me go out back in the office to talk with her she said i wasn't a person someone could joke with, telling a joke can not be done around me, I don't help out with the customers at counter and that she doesn't have trouble with anyone but me..... I then said "I think you actually hate me, I come to work and you can be all nice and happy and then you just SNAP" "You hate me and ask anyone else, they joke with me" As I said this I thought back to the morning before of how Bonnie and I were joking.

I'm the baby of them all, I get treated the WORST, and I work my ass off, yes I can talk, but usually its a lot with the customers and I try to help EVERYONE but in the morning it gets swamped and the district manager said that if you had a customer or a potential customer you were to stay at your area, which I was order taker. I try and help Laura with coffees and stuff if she gets swamped while taking orders, i run around grabbing donuts and things, I may stand at one place to punch stuff in but that doesn't mean I'm lazing and at least people get to move around more than I do. I can't tell you how bad it hurts to stand there for hours on end.

After I had that conversation with Tracy she said she didn't hate me and basically said this was all my fault... ????? so I cried out back while I "got it together" which i just broke down more. After I helped with a customer at counter and you know those people that snap to snap, or sound rude but your not sure if they are, well this guy is usually like that and at first glance of me his tone was rough but then he noticed my eyes and the tears so he spoke really softly so that was really nice......

The thing is, everyone notices Tracy's snaps. Most of us think she is bipolar or something.

anyways......I had Laura, Wade, Natasha and Brandi all on my side..... I mean come on you guys, me not able to joke? maybe if i am on my period, awake for 35 hours and my mom died

Happy Birthday Fluffy

2008-11-07T06:41:06Z

Hee hee

Today this is what you need to do :D

Thought you might at least chuckle....

"You know, being a full-blooded demon and lookin' this good is hard work. So when I get a little run down I reach for some nice, refreshing fluff. It keeps me warm and looks hella tight too! Studies show that 9 out of 13 demons don't get enough fluff, so the next time you're heading out, grab some fluff."

And now for the cake

or if you prefere something more "orignial"

Hope ya have a good one.

Having my moments

2008-11-06T03:14:39Z

Your Autumn Test Results

You are a playful, spirited person. You have a limitless imagination and amazing creative talents.

When you're happiest, you are outgoing and expressive . You love celebrations, and you enjoy showing off a little.

You prefer change to come slowly. You need a long transition period when your life changes.

You find solitude to be the most comforting thing in the world. Being alone with your thoughts feels very peaceful.

Your ideal day is spontaneous and surprising. You like to play things by ear, and you always end up doing something interesting.

You are very impatient. You spend more time waiting for something than actually enjoying it.

The Autumn Test

The Castle Personality Test

You have no problem diving into new experiences. You're so brave that you don't even notice how courageous you are.

You like to think that people see you as intellectual and wise. You consider yourself to be very smart.

You are a very romantic person. You can't help but see the world as it should be.

Right now, you feel very trapped in your life. You often feel like there is no way out of your rut.

Overall, your life is well managed and fulfilling. You enjoy every day, even if nothing out of the ordinary happens.

You aren't optimistic about the future. You worry about what will happen to the world and if we'll be able to clean up the messes we've made.

The Castle Personality Test

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way

You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to

Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets

No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.

Your caring personality really shines through.

Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.

But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

How's Your Karma?

You Are Aphrodite!

A total shining star with a ton of admirers

And no wonder: you live life to the fullest!

When things get bad, you can easily take off to a happier place

But occasionally, you need to deal with problems head on

What Goddess Are You?

You Are Lacy Panties

You're one seductive chica, but you've also got a ton of class.

You are like a pinup girl, with timeless beauty and sexiness.

Men are afraid to talk to you, knowing they'll be addicted to your charm immediately.

Only a true manly man, confident in himself, is your perfect match.

What Kind of Panties Are You?

You Are a Lace Bra!

Dreamy, romantic, and ultra-feminine

You're a womanly woman who makes guys feel like men

Your perfect guy is strong, determined, and handsome

With a softer side that only you can draw out

What Kind of Bra Are You?

Your Thinking is Abstract and Random

You are flexible, adaptable, and creative.

There's many ways that you can learn - and you're up for any of them.

You relate well to other people, and you do well working in groups.

You can help people communicate together and work with each other's strengths.

You don't work well with people who are competitive or adversarial.

You prefer to work toward a common goal... not toward conflicting goals.

What Kind of Thinker Are You?

Happy Birthday bud

2008-11-01T01:16:21Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFF!!!!
WOOO have fun :D

update

2008-10-29T19:36:18Z

Did physical trainning this morning at 9 for JROTC. Sit ups, push ups, v-reach, and the mile. Only one other girl and I actually finished our mile. I love to run in cold weather so today was lovely, besides sergeant Norey kicking me on accident >.> hahaha Math was too easy as per usual and I can tend to upset the teacher's helper by teaching the other students how to do something. Oh well. Psycology, I don't know if my teacher did it on purpose but I'm sitting on the right AGAIN to the guy who runs the things in JROTC. Forgot his title but he has the highest rank out of us puny people. Today during JROTC I asked him if he wanted the tables broken down for space, he said to let the freshmen do it. I then said, but I am considered a freshmen in this class, he then smiled and said I wasn't......weird anywho :/

P.s my uniform fits everywhere EXCEPT my boobs so I have to talk with my loggy :/ bleck lol but its okay, and I also lost 4 pounds. Well I'm off to take a nap.

Update

2008-10-22T20:40:09Z

So lately I have been home with red sore dots on my hands and feet with kankersores in my mouth. Also I have been extremely exhausted. Today my phone has rung non-stop haha. I tend to wear a lot of blue things lately or I dress by color. I have a ton of work to make up for school and grades close on Friday while I have a Science test to do, a Psychology test, and a Vocabulary test for Psychology. Along with a bunch of math quizzes with homework and classwork. A spanish quiz and 2 notebook quizzes. There is a lot do to. Though I WILL get it done. This year will not be like last year or the previous year. I WILL do good.

Luke is doing okay, some stress in his life but it is understandable.
I realized that even if I cannot spend my life with him I will always cherish him and at least we could be friends. I just know that he is one of those people I want in my life until I die.

Reciently I have been thinking about the people in my life and I have a pretty narrow list in which I really care what they think. They are those friends who have been there for me through it all. My worst and my best.

I love fall. It is my favorite season. I don't look at it as a season of death and remorse. I think of it as, well I have to drop this so I can live through winter and the harsh times. The trees are one reason why I love Maine. I also love the ocean when there are huge pieces of ice throughout it. I love the colder seasons more than the warmer ones.

Tough times

2008-10-22T13:38:41Z

Can I ask you a question please
Promise you won't laugh at me
Honestly I'm standing here
Afraid I'll be betrayed.
As twisted as it seems, I only fear love when it's in my dreams
So let the morning light come in and let the darkness fade away
Chorus:
Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?

Drowning in my loneliness
How long must I hold my breath
So much emptiness inside I could fill the deepest sea
I reach to the sky as the moon looks on
One last year has come and gonne
It's time to let your love rain down on me

Can you turn my black roses red? (x3)
Cuz
I'm feelin like I'll blame it on love (x6)

Can you turn my black roses red? (x3)
Cuz I'm feelin like I'll blame in on love
I'm feeling like I'll blame it on love (until fades)

Thats me

2008-10-21T14:26:56Z

Your result for What Your Taste in Art Says About You Test...

Balanced, Secure, and Realistic.

28 Impressionist, 14 Islamic, 0 Ukiyo-e, -25 Cubist, -18 Abstract and 2 Renaissance!

Impressionism is a movement in French painting, sometimes called optical realism because of its almost scientific interest in the actual visual experience and effect of light and movement on appearance of objects. Impressionist paintings are balanced, use colored shadows, use pure color, broken brushstrokes, thick paint, and scenes from everyday life or nature.

People that like Impressionist paintings may not alway be what is deemed socially acceptable. They tend to move on their own path without always worrying that it may be offensive to others. They value friendships but because they also value honesty tend to have a few really good friends. They do not, however, like people that are rude and do not appreciate the ideas of others. They are secure enough in themselves that they can listen to the ideas of other people without it affecting their own final decisions. The world for them is not black and white but more in shades of grey and muted colors. They like things to be aestically pleasing, not stark and sharp. There are many ways to view things, and the impresssionist personality views the world from many different aspects. They enjoy life and try to keep a realistic viewpoint of things, but are not very open to new experiences. If they are content in their live they will be more than likely pleased to keep things just the way they are.

Take What Your Taste in Art Says About You Test at HelloQuizzy

Workout much

2008-10-17T22:56:21Z

I haven't been sleep well lately. Today I did a bunch of homework. Then I went to my grandmothers and raked some leaves. Came home and did some laundry. Then I did pilates and dang you feel it working haha.

I tried waiting.

2008-10-13T14:23:34Z

Lately there has been a bunch of stress. Though I keep trying to hold it in. I wasn't going to tell anyone I hadn't heard from Luke in a week as of today. But yesterday I told mom. I just feel so.....sick to my stomach....I mean I do miss him, but I am more worried. Since last time him and I went a bit without talking his leg got crushed by a bolder. Though I am trying to stay in high spirits.

At HomeComing I didn't dance with any guys. I left half an hour early. I had a wonderful time though. The girl who was rude to me in my english class got caught WASTED at the dance.

Then work is okay. Morning shifts are getting better. Working with Linnie...not SO much. But hey oh well. One of the regulars, hes so funny and said I was going to get a christmas card from him---since I only charge him 32 cents for a 2.56 coffee.....*angel*.....shhhhhh. But his girlfriend thinks I'm adorable hahaha.

Working from n-3.

emmameiko @ 2008-10-10T22:52:00

2008-10-11T02:53:41Z

Our Solemn Hour
Artist(Band):Within Temptation

Sanctus Espiritus! redeem us from our solemn hour
Sanctus Espiritus! insanity is all around us
("I speak to you for the first time as Prime Minister in a solemn hour for the life of our country")

Sanctus Espiritus!
Sanctus Espiritus!
Sanctus Espiritus!

In my darkest hours
I could not foresee
That the tide could turn so fast to this degree
Can't believe my eyes
How can you be so blind?
Is the heart of stone, no empathy inside?

Time keeps on slipping away and we haven't learned
So in the end now what have we gained?

Sanctus Espiritus, redeem us from our solemn hour
Sanctus Espiritus, insanity is all around us
Sanctus Espiritus, is this what we deserve?
Can we break free from chains of never-ending agony?

Are they themselves to blame
The misery, the pain?
Didn't we let go?
Allowed it,let it grow
If we can't restrain
The beast which dwells inside
It will find it`s way somehow, somewhere in time

Will we remember all of the suffering
`Cause if we fail it will be in vain

Sanctus Espiritus, redeem us from our solemn hour
Sanctus Espiritus, insanity is all around us
Sanctus Espiritus, is this what we deserve?
Can we break free from chains of never-ending agony?

Sanctus Espiritus!
Sanctus Espiritus!
(" A tremendous battle is raging in France and Flanders. The Germans, by a remarkable combination of air bombing and heavily armored tanks, have broken through the French defenses north of the Maginot Line, and strong columns of their armored vehicles are ravaging the open country, which for the first day or two was without defenders...")

Sanctus Espiritus, redeem us from our solemn hour
Sanctus Espiritus, insanity is all around us
Sanctus Espiritus, is this what we deserve?
Can we break free from chains of never-ending agony? (ending agony!)

Sanctus Espiritus, redeem us from our solemn hour (solemn hour!)
Sanctus Espiritus, insanity is all around us (all around us!)
Sanctus Espiritus, is this what we deserve?
Can we break free from chains of never-ending agony?

Another quick

2008-10-11T02:35:10Z

Dinner was nice, went with my moms friends Brenda and Richard. They took me to a French resturant. It was classic and calming. It was extremely nice. I had the same thing as Brenda, it came with a salad with the "house" dressing OMG amazing, I can't remember what they call the steak, but its thick and juice and extremely tender. It was amazing and I had garlic mashed potatos. To finish it off I shared a creme brulee with Brenda.

I have a bug, thought I would be able to hold dinner down but seemed otherwise......

I'm exhausted and going to bed soon.

hope all are well

Quick

2008-10-10T14:14:39Z

I'm coming down with another cold. Didn't go to school today. Doing a bunch of chores in the house, working 3pm-6pm today. Might be going to dinner with moms friend Brenda(late get together). Then Saturday I work 7am-3pm and Home Coming is 7pm-10pm. I am going. I didn't go to any of the dances last year but this year what the heck right? Its my step sisters birthday too, Kristen. Well I'm off to be cinderella :P

Basketed from all

2008-10-07T21:46:29Z

And the Survey says.....

[1] Who was your FIRST prom date?
Haven't gone to prom.

[2] Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
Yes

[3] What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
Whiskey

[4] What was your FIRST job?
Dunkin Donuts

[5] What was your FIRST car?
N/a

[6] Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
Uh Luke? or Gabby, or mum

[7] Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
Luke

[8] Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
Mrs. G :D

[9] Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
Arizona

[10] Who was your FIRST best friend and are you still friends with them?
My grandpa.

[11] What was your FIRST sport played?
Tennis

[12] Where was your FIRST sleep over?
At a friends house?

[13] Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
Hailee, or mum

[14] Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
My moms

[15] What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
Shower

[16] What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
Newsboys and two others.

[17] FIRST tattoo or piercing?
Ears

[18] FIRST foreign country you went to for vacation?
England and France

[19] What was your FIRST run in with the law?
Someone thought I was breaking into my friends house

[20] When was your FIRST detention?
3rd grade

[21] What was the FIRST state you lived in?
Maine

[22] Who was the FIRST person to break your heart?
My father.

[23] Who was your FIRST roommate?
N/a

[24] Where did you go on your FIRST limo ride?
N/a

[25] Who will be the FIRST to repost this?
Uh aunti?